Mar 13, 2012

Check it out!

Hey everybody. I haven't posted in a while. Not too much different going on here.

I get maintenance regularly. He's been laying into me with the leather paddle for that. He's also decided that maintenance before he goes out of town or I go out of town if we are apart will now be the norm. That maintenance also has nothing to do with the normal regular maintenance.

I haven't done anything to really earn a punishment lately. I pulled my back out and was down for the count for about a week and am still recovering. I am pretty much back to normal, but every so often I feel it tweak again. Also, I have not yet been released from therapy. That's ok. It's moving in the right direction.

I have had some family drama and family health issues to deal with. I think things are settling down there.

Work has been getting busy. Too many changes for my taste. I just try to take each day for that day and not worry about what it to come.

So, if you aren't hearing from me as much, there is just a lot of other stuff going on that is taking my attention and energy right now. I'm still here. I'll just post whenever I can and feel like I need it.

Anyhow...if you don't know...Daisychristian over at Guide Me Gently is back. She is a very close friend of mine. Please take a minute to go check her out. She's an absolute doll and needs all the support you can muster. Thanks for visiting her.  http://guidemegently.blogspot.com/

God bless and take care all!!! Big Hugs!!!!

Feb 2, 2012

I don't know how I feel

I did get those three days of spankings. It wasn't too bad. He was mostly just trying to make a point. Which actually...I LOVE!

I got spanked twice more that week. I got maintenance on Sunday as usual. Boy did that one smart. It was harder than I had had in a while. Then I got one or two more spankings for sassiness Sunday and Monday.

Then he was leaving for a few days for work and decided I needed another maintenance before he left.
I got a quick spanking, a kiss, an I love you, be good...and he left. I then went back to sleep.

He's not back yet and needless to say...I am missing him so very much. I told him today that I miss my spankings. I miss his authority. I just miss him.

It's not that I like being spanked for punishment, but I like it when he holds me accountable. Honestly, I don't think he does it enough and wish he would do it more.

We've had a talk recently about how he throws the phrases 'I'm going to spank you' or ' You need a spanking' around very loosely and often kidding. It's gotten so bad that half the time I DON'T know when he's really kidding and when he's not. Honestly, that's a lot what led to my smart mouth that got me the 3-day spanking sentence.

He said he understood and apologized. Hopefully he'll use the words sparingly and only when he means it. I also told him how when I do things, a lot of times he just says 'I can't wait for maintenance day'. So I asked him why he had to wait until then? Why not just punish me right when I did whatever?

I don't think he really had an answer for that, but I think he understood my frustration. I mean I feel like when we get to maintenance day, it's just that, the regular maintenance. He never is really addressing all those things from the week.

Now, like 99.995% of the time, I am only in trouble for sassiness and attitude. I do chores if he ever gives me any. But, if it's sassiness he's threatening to punish for, then go ahead and do it! Why wait?

Anyhow, I think he is understanding my concerns. That is a lot why I got all those subsequent spankings and the extra maintenance. (Honestly, one of the times I got spanked, it was because Stormy possessed me and I turned and walked out while he was talking to me. Not good. I was told to stop, that I knew better. Yes, I did. I was being bratty. Too big for britches I guess.)

Anyway, I hope he talks less and acts more!

(but I am a pretty good girl!!!)

Ok, so maybe I really do know how I feel.

Jan 17, 2012

Well I really stepped in it!

*sigh*

I messed up and now I am going to pay for it.

Lately I haven't been spanked for anything. He's even skipped maintenance a couple of times. Now granted, there were reasons it got skipped, but still.

So I guess I've been mouthy lately. A bit mouthier than I should be.

So tonight he said something and I picked up a pillow and he gave me 'the look'. I threw it anyway. Then I proceeded to tell him that he wasn't going to spank me that we both knew he wasn't.

My DD friend was texting me so he told me to give him my phone where he promptly told her he was go to give me a 'whoopin' since I said he wouldn't. (not sure why he used that word. I think he found it amusing)

So he told me to get upstairs and he would show me how wrong I was. It wasn't terribly horrible compared to what most people get, but it hurt really bad because my skin is so sensitive right now on top of the fact that I haven't really been spanked much. It was enough to make me sorry though! Then he proceeded to tell me that for the next couple of days, I was going to be spanked since I obviously felt that he wasn't spanking me enough and that I had gotten too big for my britches.

I was teasing but I took it too far and did not heed his warning. I really don't want to be spanked the next few days!

I guess I really stepped in it this time. Mess with the bull, you get the horns!